ok. well. it's almost 2am in the morning. It's definitely not really my type to write a blog and i have never thought I would start creating a blog except for assignment purposes. So well, here I am.
Well, 2 days ago that is the 3/6/2013 that is on Monday night something happen. I felt depressed till now. I have cried myself to sleep for the whole day yesterday and yea now is 2am the next day of it. I have no where to express how i feel so I seek blogspot to do it. I upset of my relationship. I'm lost and don't know what to do.
3 years ago, I have met a wonderful guy that treats me like a princess. He always do what I want and have never once said no to me. It's always a yes. Even when I want desserts that is far away from where we live, he will still brings me there just to buy the desserts for me. He always makes me smile and one hell of a joker. Sometimes I can't even talk serious stuff to him. No matter what, he always stands on my side just to protect me. Those who knows me, I'm not a normal girly girl at all. Therefore, it is very hard for people to handle me in terms of my personality and attitude of course. But he did it. This guy handles me well. VERY WELL!
I get to know his family background and all. Normal stuff couples do. Asking questions and all. So few years back I guess i have a bad temper or something that makes his sisters dislike me like alot! Initially, it was his younger sister and now it's the older sister; that is still younger than him. So, his younger sister it seems good to me now.
Get back to the point, I am actually frustrated with the other sister. All I need is the truth. I just don't get it why does she needs to post something about me on public. Izit the way to pull down my morality or something? Guess what, she did. I know that even when I look strong on the outside but I'm still hurt inside. Why? Because of our relationship, I need to deal with his sister. True that I have to just ignore and all but family always comes first. I honesly feel bad for him because of me, he fought with his sister. I just do not want that to happen at all.
I have grow up in such being honest and truthful is important to improve one's life. Well, guess not everyone can accept the truth. I have always thought that I would have a great relationship with him and his family. Guess I'm wrong. You just can't please everyone. Even so, I'm honestly sad and wants to repair our relationship between his sister and me. I don't dare to face him at all. It's because of me siblings fight. That's one thing I would not want to see to my future children. Family is the most important person in my life. This have seriously cross my line and my believe. I thought of ending our relationship for a few times because of your sister. I know that's stupid so I did not say anything.
What I want is to be happy with the person I love. Guess this is much more complicated than I thought it would be. I really don't know how to do it at all. Crying to sleep is the only way to make me stop thinking about everything.
p.s: I'm honestly sorry for what I have done to you and your sister. I would love to fix the problem that she has with me. But I don't have the courage to do so. If loving you will break your relationship with your sister then if I could I will voluntary back off from your life. Remember blood is thicker than the water. I'm truly sorry.
